Regrets

I should listen rather than  follow myself
It should not happen this nightmares
Yees! I Still remember that shit smell, his faces, voice and memories 
I would rather to buried it and wish to kill myself.


Shaking my nerves up to  my brain
Hallucination kills my social life
Losing trust! how to restore?
Please! Give me a gun and shot me.


I cannot longer  continue life
I am shame that it spread
How can I handle ?


When I see similar car
heart start to felt abnormal
while mind started to malfunction.
all over again nightmare  start to flash back .   


Now I start to hate them 
having in denial of my  preference.
But I don't like the feeling.


Who  should I blame?
 me? Who is so bastard?
Him? them?? this devils!
Who poison my  innocence. 

Yahweh! evolve me to a brand new

Surrendering residue of bad day passed,

Saved my soul

Teach me how to forget and forgive them.